Hardly Moving On, But Im No Saint

I use to have the prettiest of lovers
brightest blue eyes
and a light that shown for no other
she lost herself finally
she no longer shines for me

i still trace the lines of her jaw
the curve of her lips
and the cords of her muscles
in my sleep
she is still with me

the warmth of the sun rising
reminds me of long nights
tangled and lost in you
sleep no longer peaceful

i have lost myself among the insomniacs

Things Become UnHinGed

There is a war going on inside my head
exploding with forgives and forgets
i hate you
for everything you did to me
for leaving me this empty husk
of a dying breed
God i hate you
you are so beautiful
with your ice cold blue eyes
and sharp piercing tongue
i love you
i love you
God i love you
these memories suffocating my sanity
burned deeply into my temporal lobe
what have you done to me?
your smell still lingers
your touch still felt...
God i hate you